insecurities & doubts

PHYSICAL
-The many keloids and acne scars on my shoulder and back, even though I recently accepted them.
-My massive thighs that seem to be the last things to reduce in size when I exercise.
-My somewhat big and wide butt...especially in a bikini.
-My stubby armpits.
-My hairy arms and the fact that I have a bit more body hair than a normal girl.

NONPHYSICAL
-I have the worst mental map, which means I feel very uncomfortable driving people because I'm afraid of judgement on my navigating skills. I'm a good driver, but I just get lost easily.
-Sometimes I believe I have horrible taste in music, as in I don't mind radio mainstream stuff, excluding a few songs.
-My lack of knowledge in cars and technology in general.
-My athletic abilities.
-My cooking abilities.
-My creative abilities.
-My future career and if I'll be successful and happy.

To get rid of my insecurities, I thought I would just expose them. I'm working on getting over many of them, especially the physical, since they are something that I was either born with or know I could never get rid of. However, it is harder for me to get rid of my nonphysical insecurities and doubts, since they are something I developed myself and had other people judge me vocally and most likely mentally. I often give people encouraging advices for themselves, relationships, or their future plans, and yet, I have a hard time following my own pep talks. I am somewhat confident in myself, but I believe to be able to fully live your life, you just have to become at peace with your insecurities and get over it. As you can see, I have quite a few insecurities left to punch out.

I have to admit, my heart is beating a bit faster and harder just thinking about sharing this with all of you, but it's really for the best, my best anyway. I rarely receive pep talks from other people, since I have a problem asking for help sometimes, so this is a pep talk to myself.

"The only thing that is stopping you is you."